Baby believe me

You're all that matters to me

From the bottom of my heart, please believe 

I'm grateful for your existence

Faithful no matter the distance

You told me I'm a special girl

Boy do you know you light up my world

I have dreams and hopes just to make a difference

With you by my side, nothing's changed since

You root for me, pray for me, and believe in me

You just let me do my thing, so faithfully

I'm not even sure where I'm going or what to do

But I'm not spending a day unless it's with you

People can judge and they can talk

Only one that matters is God and His watch

You have a special place in my heart

Think I love you, boy this is just the start

I want you to know you're something special

A great man with a heart that's gentle

You really are amazing

Because it's God you're praising

You gotta be who you're gonna be

It's beautiful, baby believe me

...just felt like writing... :) 

Forever Yours Thankfully

What am I thankful for? (2013) 

God’s love. grace. forgiveness. mercy. sovereignty. 

#1- God

God breathed life into me 23 years ago, and for that I am thankful, that He thought of me before I was even born. God never let me go out of His hands and when I was in 8th grade God let me experience Him in an intimate relationship with Him for the first time in my life. He became my Father. I fell more in love with Him as I studied Him at Biola University, the Bible Institute of Los Angeles, and then, at the time that I least deserved Him, He loved me more than I ever thought possible. He literally saved me from my worst low in life, and He lifted me right off the ground into His loving arms. I am so thankful for who God is to me. He is my Father. He is my Savior. He is my joy. He is my healer. He is my redeemer. He is my lover. He is my grace. He is my leader. He is my love. He is my sight. He is my all. I am only because of who He is. 

Nov. 28. 2013

Clarity

I want to share with you what God taught me in church last Sunday night. It’s regarding how our lives are an ongoing conversation with God, and how God speaks to us. People, myself including might say they’ve never heard the actual physical voice of God, they might feel things, but how do they know what is from God and not just from themselves? How do we know where God wants us to go? Walking down a path if both paths seem good, and we ask God which way he wants us to go, right or left, how do we hear His answer? How does he speak to us? Then often times I get frustrated and stuck in one spot, because I haven’t heard from God yet which way he wants me to go, to the right or to the left. Should I not get out of bed until God tells me to? Should I not brush my teeth until God tells me to? Should I not put my shoes on until God tells me to? God DOES speak to us, sometimes in the simplest ways such as our thoughts. He speaks to us through His word. And God speaks to us through the Holy Spirit. Maybe I won’t ever get a clear answer from God about taking the right or the left path in life, but what I can do is trust Him as I make a decision. God doesn’t have to tell us every little detail about our lives which He knows, that’s sometimes for Him to keep to Himself, we don’t need to know the unknown in order to trust in God. We can ask God which way He wants us to go and maybe He’ll tell us and maybe He won’t; maybe He’ll start to tell us or tell us both ways are ok but one may be better. Maybe God doesn’t want us to know. The point is we don’t need clarity from God in order to trust Him. I can’t believe I used to live my life holding back my complete trust from God before I knew the complete details of His plan. What was I thinking? Those are my selfish wants getting in the way of who God made me to be, His faithful daughter. I don’t need clarity from God, the only thing I need is to trust Him. Don’t get me wrong, of course I will be asking and listening to God in everything I do and say, and I’m sure the more I ask and listen the more I will hear from God and God will speak to me in endless ways, but I don’t need Him to give me all the answers I want to hear, all I need to do is trust Him. I don’t need to know if God will miraculously heal my mom in 5 years from now, but I do need to trust Him right now. I don’t need God to tell me exactly what will happen and where He wants me to go after I get my degree, but I will trust Him with what He has enabled me with and I will trust God that He will put to the pieces together for me; whether I know it is happening or not. God will lead the way for me to go, even in the dark. All I need is faith, to trust Him. 

Turn pain into praise. Restore in me the joy of your salvation

My Heavenly Father always amazes me. He has given me freedom, and because of Him, I exist.

 I want to follow Paul's example of how he loved God. When he was in prison, on death row, he was praying and singing to God at MIDNIGHT. Usually, midnight is a time when I'd be rethinking all my worries and doubts about my relationship with the Lord. But God's love is STRONG. It carries me.
"The one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world." 1 John 4:4
God is faithful. He loves me. His grace redeems me. His grace I freely receive and I am heartbroken for my sins against God, however, I am forgiven! God has given me a new and clean heart, and I re-dedicate my life to God, this day April 15, 2013. I stood up in a crowd of hundreds of people to proclaim that I am trusting God through my trial. Right now, in April, the man of my dreams is away from me, but this is a blessing in disguise. God's mercy and God's faithfulness has never been more real in my life than it is right now. And I've never trusted God more than I do now, with all that I have and all that I am. I'm laying down my life for Christ and walking away. I leave all my baggage at His feet and I'm walking away in glory, that I share only because my Heavenly Father loves me as His daughter. When things get really tough, when I've got nothing more to give, God's grace will sustain me and God is the reason I do all that I do, to please Him.
Turn trials into smiles
Turn pain into praise.
I trust God, for whatever is to come, it's His will I'm seeking, not my own. And I'm praying, praying, and praying. I have faith that God put Greg into my life so that we may seek God's will together. Greg has given me nothing but joy and love, despite what others think. I am thankful for Greg because he challenges me, and he pushes me to be myself. I couldn't imagine my life without him. He's God's second greatest gift to me, and I'm in love with him, thanking God for a godly man to walk beside in life. The name Gregory means watchful, always looking for Jesus. I only live for an audience of One, and I live to only please God. God's grace has never been greater and his joy is more evident in my heart right now as I'm praising Him through our trial :)
His grace sustains me, it's all I need.
May the peace of Christ be in you all.