futboleros prayer

I'm praying for a job. Please Lord provide me with an income. I may not have a clean record for another year, but please show me how to fight for it God. Show me how to push myself, how to work harder, how to prove to the world that Jesus is alive. I love futbol, I wanna play, I wanna train, I wanna coach, I want to live futbol. A soccer ball brings many people together, from all over the world, from all walks of life, whether it's a dirt field, grass, turf, rubber, cement, wood, plastic, bring a soccer ball and all kinds of people from all over the world come together as one. That's how I want to share the gospel with people. Through the world's sport. Thank you God for all soccer has taught me about life so far.
As a center mid, you don't know where the ball is going to come from but you've got to get it, and you're not quite sure once you even get the ball what you're going to do with it or where you're going to go with it. You could go any way, forward, backwards, to the left or right, you have so many choices, and so many different ways of getting the ball where you want it, or maybe you just go not knowing where you even want it.
As a forward, you have a goal, to place the ball in the other goal. You can do it in so many ways, basically using any body part besides your hands. And you've got to be tricky, creative, baller, and aggressive. You've got to take initiative.
As a defender, your job is to keep the ball from passing you. You fight for not only your life, but your teammate's lives as well, protecting your goalkeeper from doing all the work. But that's not your only job, you also have to distribute the ball, making an attack. You gotta be hard, and quick, and you gotta win. And you gotta take care of everybody else, communication is key.
As a goalkeeper, you gotta clean up the mess and put it all together and make it not only presentable but the best as well. You are everyone's last hope. You upset the other team by making those big saves and stealing the ball away from going in your goal. You gotta steal the ball away, being patient, but tricky, and you have to do your job and you also have to tell everybody else how to do their job. You are the only player on your team with the most vision, seeing more of the field. You are their second pair of eyes and you've got to protect them and direct them.
Life is a game. Full of choices. Everyday life is a test. And life is a trust.
Who are you testing in your life right now?
Who are you trusting in your life right now?
God's got your back

Fall Into Winter 2012

I'm living in Long Beach right now, and I'm looking for a nanny or babysitting job. I'm starting to play soccer again, I need to get back in shape first. I have an assignment, in one month to complete 45 job applications. This is the first time in almost 4 years that I have not had a job. It sucks but it's given me time to realize I have so much to be thankful for. Each day I post on facebook what I am thankful for, since it's almost thanksgiving and all. I am where I am today, beacuse of my family, my friends, God most of all, and I couldn't be happier. Throughout the past 12 months, I have been through ALOT. emotionally, physically, spiritually, I have gone through a lot of pain, sorrow, frustration, but that's just that, I got through it, only with God's help did I get through it. My life has changed at lightning speed in the past year. I've been through jail, family issues, friend issues, housing issues, food on the table issues, I've been without, I've been with too much, I've been alone, I've been surrounded. It's definitely been up and down, and today, I am finally proud to say that my life is back to more normal me; edawg. Erin who loves soccer and Jesus more than anybody else. Erin who laughs at everything and laughs so hard I can't breathe for 30 seconds, tears of joy, Erin who laughs everytime my uncle prays, I just can't take the smile off my face. I am so happy with my boyfriend Greg. I am soo proud of him, today he is 28 days sober! He is my best friend, my soul mate, and I'm going to love him forever. He is my big little kid, he knows me best and I know him best, and I can't imagine life without him. Thank God for bringing this man into my life! It's the beginining of November, and it's the beginning of a lot of new things and unknown things for me. I'm EXCITED! I love going to church the morning after daylight savings time. I'm SO thankful to God and I'm asking Him to guide me, lead me, make me into who He's created me to be. HAPPY WINTER! :)

August 2012

Dear God,
Please save him. Use me Lord. Speak through me. Work though me. Jesus, please forgive me for what I have done or not done or let happen. Lord, I am so sorry for not trusting you in the beginning. Jesus, you have blessed me with this wonderful life and I am sorry that I have forgotten my first love, or been distracted. Please forgive me God. I am your precious daughter whom you love dearly and I dearly love you Lord with all my heart, soul, and mind. Please let me bring you back to the number 1 priority in my life. You are my everything God. I owe you my life and my every breath. God, I love him. I'm at a loss about what to do. Is it time to let go, and let you God? Do I just pray? Do I keep fighting? Do I keep it a secret? Do I let it go and move on? God, what do I do? Do I give tough love? Do I help? Do I stop? Lord Lord Lord, I am asking you to please guide me and show me the way. God please show me what to do. Lord I want to please you and glorify you. I want to play soccer. I want to bring joy into kids' lives. God you are my Father and I love you. Please help him God, bring him close to you and wrap him in your arms of love and never let him go Lord. He is your son whom you love dearly. God, don't let him go, hold onto him and may he learn to abide in your love God. He is my soul mate. 20 years from now I want to look back to this time and just see it as a bump in the road, one that I learned from Lord. So I am asking you, to teach me God. Teach me, I'm listening to what you have to say Father. You have blessed me with so much God.
I am incredibly blessed and you have given me so much God. God, please save him and keep him on your path Lord God. May you place a desire to know you better in his heart God, each and every day. Put a passion in his soul for you God. May he find me there. God, you brought us together. So keep us together, please God. I'm trusting in you, to show me the way. You are my everything God and I lean on you for all understanding. May we worship you together. Please show us your love and may we receive it with open hearts.
Thank you holy and precious God.

You Make Me Smile

When I go to the phone

It's your # I start to dial

Because you always make me smile

When you're holding my hand

You lift me up and I can't get my feet to land

When you hug me and hold me tight

There's no way, that smile I can't fight

I feel so safe in your arms

I'm out of the way of any harm

When you kiss my cheek, my heart beats fast

That's God telling us that this love will last

When your arm is around me

You open up my world so I can see

Together, when we dance

I thank God for this chance

And when you touch my face

It's like our world stops to our pace

With God, we can get through any trial

When I hug you, I feel God's smile

He said we're gonna be together for a while

How can I not smile

The New Testament “Gamble” by John Lynch

“What if I tell them who they are?” What if I take away any element of fear in condemnation, judgment or rejection”?
“What if I tell them I love them, will always love them? That I love them right now, no matter what they’ve done, as much as I love my only Son? That there’s nothing they can do to make my love go away”?
“What if I tell them there are no lists? What if I tell them I don’t keep a log of past offenses, of how little they pray, how often they’ve let me down, made promises that they don’t keep?”
“What if I tell them they are righteous, with my righteousness, right now”?
“What if I tell them they can stop beating themselves up? That they can stop being so formal, stiff and jumpy around me?”
“What if I tell them I’m crazy about them? What if I tell them, even if they run to the ends of the earth and do the most horrible, unthinkable things, that when they come back, I’d receive them with tears and a party”?
“What if I tell them that I am their Savior, they’re going to heaven no matter what--it’s a done deal?
“What if I tell them they have a new nature--saints, not saved sinners who should now ‘buck up and be better’ if they were any kind of Christians, after all He’s done for you!”
“What if I tell them that I actually live in them now? That I’ve put my love, power, and nature inside of them, at their disposal?”
“What if I tell them that they don’t have to put on a mask? That it is OK to be who they are at this moment, with all their junk. That they don’t need to Pretend about how close we are, how much they pray or don’t, how much Bible they read or don’t?”
“What if they knew they don’t have to look over their shoulder for fear if things get too good, the other shoe’s gonna drop?”
“What if they knew I will never, ever use the word “punish” in relation to them?”
“What if they knew that when they mess up, I will never 'get back at them'?”
“What if they were convinced that bad circumstances aren’t my way of evening the score for taking advantage of me?”
“What if they knew the basis of our friendship isn’t how little they sin, but how much they let me love them?”
“What if I tell them they can hurt my heart, but that I never hurt theirs?”
“What if I tell them I like U2’s music too?”
“What if I tell them I never really liked the Christmas hand bell deal with the white gloves?”
“What if I tell them they can open their eyes when they pray and still go to heaven?”
“What if I tell them there is no secret agenda, no trapdoor?”
“What if I tell them it isn’t about their self-effort, but about allowing me to live my life through them?”